Daddy’s Blue Eyes

Daddy’s blue eyes-

So beautiful and strong.

I wish they were mine.

Why do boys always go after the blondes?

If your daddy only married that white girl,

Then you’d have those pretty blue eyes.

If I were only a shade lighter…

My brown eyes-

So ugly and plain…

Mulatto

Just as much white as brown

But the white does not accept

And the brown I’ve never known.

Never been bruised or beaten.

No other language.

No difference between me and them.

I thought I was above it all.

I thought I belonged.

“What nationality are you”

They have always demanded.

“American” has never been good enough for them-

They must know

As if it mattered.

Yet, they have no box for me.

Just as much white as brown

But the white doesn’t accept

And the brown I’ve never known.

Backwards Girl

You are the Backwards Girl
Laughing as you Cry
Crying as you Laugh
You are the Backwards Girl
Loving that which you should Hate
Hating that which you should Love
You are the Backwards Girl
Worrying those that surround you
Not seeing the World around you
You are the Backwards Girl
Are you your only Friend?

Lost

You’re lost- I know. 
But you’re not
Alone.
I’m lost too.
And we can wander the desert
Together
Until we find our way back
Home.

Pink

Don’t play in the mud

You’ll ruin your pink dress

Boys don’t like dirty girls.

But Mommy, I don’t want to wear this pink dress.

Don’t eat with your hands

It’s not lady-like

No boy will date a girl who eats with her hands.

But Mom, I don’t like this pink dress.

Learn to cook; learn to sew

That’s what women do

For their husbands.

Mom, I don’t want this pink dress.

Don’t have sex

You must control yourself

They’ll think you’re used goods.

Mother, I hate this pink dress.

Don’t disagree; don’t be angry

Speak with your eyes

Men don’t want smart, angry, disagreeable women.

But Mommy, I don’t want to wear this pink dress.

North Star

You have forever been my guiding light
I have always looked to you
To find myself
And
My way

Yesterday, I turned around and
You were gone

How have I Lost you?

Why did you leave me?

Now
I look closer
And I know
I did not lose you

I have only lost myself.

Forever Lost
In the darks sea

No one for miles

Lost
And searching
For my
North Star.